Zf's rants

2009-10-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

You've done well (: And regardless of what few others may say, I'm proud of you.

2009-08-17T18:36:00.002+08:00

View in HD.

2009-08-15T19:37:00.000+08:00

'Today, I was rudely woken up at 6am by a bird - the same one that has bugged me for years. I just heard it again, and turned to my dad to tell him that 'the bird was more irritating than him'. I was wrong; he started mimicking the bird. FML'

2009-07-06T23:13:00.002+08:00

Would be great if I had size 11.5 feet and sub-44 seconds 400m timings.

2009-07-06T21:19:00.001+08:00

The Fray - Never Say Never

There's some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
Why we don't know when
Time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

Picture you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
Steady your hand

You can never say never
Why we don't know when
Time, time and time again
Younger now then we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together
Pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x4]

First heard it off my sister's iTunes, then, after listening to it again, realised it was in Transformers. Haha, nice song (:

2009-06-27T13:46:00.001+08:00

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears

2009-06-27T12:20:00.003+08:00

We post cryptic messages in hope of knowledge that we're not alone; yet ironically, we refuse to open up.

I should be in Berlin and away from this failblog.org-worthy life.

2009-06-27T12:13:00.004+08:00

UPDATE:

I'm living my life the only way I know how. But I'm trying to change. Help?

2009-05-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

2009-05-23T00:15:00.000+08:00

Michael Bublé - Everything

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And You're the perfect thing to say.

And you play your card, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

Guitar was great (: pity I was horribly tired.

2009-05-18T19:39:00.001+08:00

2009-05-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

nice! (:

2009-05-12T20:56:00.006+08:00

When you see the Statue of non Liberty,

Shout:

You probably won't understand this, unless you've been through the wondrous Intellectual Carcinogen sessions we've enjoyed (:

Feedback:

This is the most life-changing course I've ever been through! It's changed my whole view of research work. Now, armed as I am with knowledge of 'sneaky suspicions', I'm now ready to take on the world. Or any Buffalo. IC has made me a better man.

The instructors are wonderfully engaging! I'm sure my classmates would all agree on their humour, knowledge and impeccable personal hygiene! I've never seen my class so united and enthusiastic, ever!

WE LOVE IC!

Disclaimer: This story is purely fictional, for entertainment and satirical humour. Any resemblances to people, living or dead, is unintentional.

edit: reposted from class blog.

2009-05-06T22:42:00.002+08:00

Am I too weak to face up, too frightened or simply don't know how? The horrible, sinking feeling of being useless, powerless to improve matters. It seems like everything gets worse exponentially when I try.

2009-05-06T15:49:00.001+08:00

Yellowcard - Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

I wonder is physical pain the only way to numb oneself from reality, where he is hated. By himself. Sometimes.

2009-05-04T20:27:00.003+08:00

I feel like I'm having a multitude of successive mood swings. Doesn't help that I get giddy and have a headache during (a particularly useless lesson. no prizes for guessing what). And it's great when you try to sleep it off on the bus, only to end up waking 5 stops after your home.

Well, one positive thing (hey, one can comfort himself). It's apparent that no furniture at home can take the force generated by my hip flexors. And no, you're not supposed to understand that unless you have a pin-hole camera in my room.

2009-04-12T20:09:00.001+08:00

Well, I miss my skin.

Really, it (and the shock) is gonna waste my weeks of training. Sigh, and it is supposed to be my first and perhaps last chance.

2009-03-24T21:19:00.002+08:00

I've never quite been this scared, nor this thankful. Team, Ms Teoh, and friends. Thanks.

2009-03-22T22:07:00.001+08:00

2009-03-18T22:19:00.003+08:00

Ahh. Tickets are sold out. Not like I have the time nor cash, though :/

2009-03-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

It's worth a watch. Or two.

Aye, I like salmon :D

Nationals in 8 days. And I'm taking steeple for track. Oh- [silence].

2009-03-07T20:21:00.000+08:00

18 days to nationals.

I'm scared.

2009-03-01T17:05:00.004+08:00

"People ask me why do I run. I ask them, why did you stop?"

- Jeremy Wariner
Olympic 400m Sprinter, adidas-sponsored athelete

2009-02-27T21:24:00.002+08:00

3rd, 17th, 18.16.

Yes, the v11 legacy fell in our hands, but it was a great effort guys (and girls) (:

This post is essentially a thank-you message, to all those who've encouraged me along the way, one way or another. I wasn't feeling my best, but when the going got tough, you guys got me going.

Thanks Miss Chua (shouting my name and making me feel weird before the bridge), Zhai Juan (pacing me throughout the race, pushing me on. couldn't have ran without him), Manu (for being just in front of me and pulling me with him), VJXC guys (all the blood, sweat, toil and tears), Yitong ('jiayou panda!'), Terence ('go zf! go zf!'), Chang Hong ('go zhengfenggggg'), Yiying&Charmaine, everyone else at the finishing line, and of course, you (:

Right, I love running.

2009-02-15T18:19:00.000+08:00

awesome way to waste 10mins. it's weird.

2009-02-15T13:25:00.002+08:00

Funnily, I didn't cough until after the race yesterday. Might be because some nice guy decided to push me down on my second step. Well, I'm glad to say I managed to complete the route though I haven't trained in a week. I need to get my form back. Desperately.

P.S. The new history reading is 21 pages long, and is more interesting than the rest.

2009-02-13T22:58:00.001+08:00

:D, heh. smexy shoes. not so nice botak o:

2009-02-02T21:07:00.001+08:00

Is feeling crappy for no apparent reason.

2009-01-27T21:50:00.002+08:00

I'm no Lunar New Year fanboy. Quite the opposite really.

Hell, I miss school, I miss training, I miss friends. Well, I don't deny I like CNY for food though.

In any case, this post is to inform myself that, (i) yes, there is school tomorrow (ii) and no, I haven't completed my work.

2009-01-26T22:17:00.002+08:00

To Uncle Beefy:

Throughout my 15-going-16 years of my life, you, for the first 3/4 of it, kept trying to show me how strong you were by squeezing my hand/arm, etc. For the later 1/4, you kept telling me how your son, my cousin is damn strong. I hate to break this to you, but you're not strong; you're just pure fat. And I don't care how many commando pushups your kid can do, because no brains gets him nowhere.

Well, just a thought above.

Happy CNY, if anyone bothers to read my blog. Hell, it's really inactive, lol.

2009-01-25T13:20:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why, but I'm starting to appreciate rock songs from late 90s-early00s more now.

Keane - Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

2009-01-17T22:06:00.002+08:00

SLC was fun :D Thank you, I Don't Know (Bryan, Eileen, Rachelle, Vanessa, Marian and Judy).

Bash night was a night of crazy highness! From camwhoring with VS guys, to PSL rejects, to even 31 gang :D I hella wish I stayed. Well, thanks to all who wished me good luck. Sorry I disappointed.

If you didn't get the previous sentence, I mean, I ought to have stayed instead of going for the demoralizing race. Sigh.

2009-01-09T20:14:00.002+08:00

Imagine this:

A dream. You see a camera crew in front of Pastamania!/Giant in Parkway. You see Mediacorp artistes like Adrian Pang, Bryan Wong, Felicia Chin, Pan Lingling and Patricia Mok. You walk away to avoid them, being camera-shy as you are. Then,

'你是不是VJ的?!', says Felicia Chin.

Okay, it's too late for you to run. You stand there pretending to be particularly interested in pasta sauces.

'你是不是VJ的学生?', she asks again.
You smile, reluctantly managing an 'Er, yahhh.'
'你有空吗？帮我们玩一个游戏!'
Oh no. You stare around for an excuse to leave. When none came, and with the camera aimed at your face, you reply softly to Felicia Chin, 'Er.. 没有。'

.
.
.

But what if, it were all true. It was no dream. In fact, it happened in Parkway this afternoon.

Okay, I got lazy to finish it properly.

2009-01-03T12:37:00.002+08:00

Lesson (i): Do not fall prey to singtel's marketing gimmicks.
Lesson (ii): Do not buy the dumb Nokia phone on offer.
Lesson (iii): Do not drop your phone in the toilet, at the start of the new year and 1.5months after your warrenty had expired.
Lesson (iv): If your warrenty's expired, do not seek help from the Nokia Care Centre.
Lesson (v): Record down whatever the employee tells you so you'll have a case against them.
Lesson (vi): Blame your own stupidity for not learning lessons (i) to (v), and having to pay for nothing.

In short, I'm fucking pissed with telcos.

2008-12-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today. I went shopping.

2008-11-26T21:09:00.000+08:00

Hiatus until (i) need to bitch (ii) crazily bored (iii) crazily ecstatic.

Hell, not like people read this o:

2008-11-25T20:45:00.000+08:00

As part of the prize that awaits winners of the adidas Inspirators contest, the adidas adizero adios shoe (the same model Haile Gebrselassie wore when he rewrote his record in Berlin this year) was released to the 200 chosen contestants.

Here's a first look at the shoe:

It boasts of full-forefoot adiPRENE (as seen below):

Have yet to take the shoe for a run (will do so tomorrow). So I'll update on the feel of the shoes later (:

And in case you're wondering, the adios will be commercially available in January 2009.

:DD

2008-11-19T19:33:00.003+08:00

I only just bothered looking at my elective assignments. Big wonder why I got that elective grade. 'LATELATELATELATELATE' and 'You lazy bum! This is SO late!' on 2/3 of my assignments. Hell yeah, for a teacher who I barely know, you know me pretty well.

Hence, I'm going to take stuff that actually interest me, not those that are supposedly slack. Dammit.

2008-11-16T21:39:00.001+08:00

(:

16k timetriallll. I know I'm going to die/end up last but heck, I'm looking forward to training. Or perhaps, the passing of time.

2008-11-11T23:14:00.000+08:00

I do (cherish you).

2 weeks to try my best to improve. Play hard Zf!

2008-11-05T11:54:00.000+08:00

The term 'solitary joy' is a damned lie.

2008-11-05T09:26:00.001+08:00

Right, I'm such a genius. Not. Yes, I happily went and screwed everything.

2008-11-02T21:45:00.003+08:00

IP1's officially over. Aye, 08v11, a year spent with you guys was interesting (however not-bonded we may be, however much I get irritated/frustrated with certain stuff). Heck, school's out.

Train, train, train. IP1 guys: 4 4 20!

Right, holidays are burnt by training. Plenty to do though:

1. Improve. A lot.
2. Meet people!
(i) ~~Jonathan Loh~~ (I met him yesterday)
(ii) Wee Bian (aye, old friend, haven't seen you in ages)
(iii) Weiliang and Seryang (wl, we must go ~~destroy~~cook in seryang's kitchen again (:)
(iv) ZH & Zj (yes, we haven't had our 'cousin outing's in over a year)
(v) 6A (certain few anyway. jing, shan, bian, nigel, enan, jorene, brenda, amanda)
(vi) GS people (SC, gi, sherri)
(vii) Wayne, Sean, Junyan, Haqeem (aye, oddly I crashed this senior's gang a couple of times)

3. Study! (I'm not gonna slack any more ~~I hope~~)

2008-10-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

Buckcherry - Sorry

Oh I had a lot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I missed you and things weren’t the same
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry, it makes me wanna die
I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know,
I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

This time I think I’m to blame
It’s harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know
I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I just wanted to sayyyy
I’m sorry

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It’s never too late to make it right
Oh yeah, sorryyy
I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue
I’m sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can’t take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go ’round
And I juuuust wanted to sayyyy
I’m sorryyyyyyyoyyyyyy
I’m sorry baby
I’m sorry baby, Yeah
I’m sorry

2008-10-28T23:24:00.002+08:00

/me woke up at 8.42, thinking I'd be late for Simpang prata with the guys. Showered/brushed and left home at 9.15, reaching at 9.40, before the meeting time of 10. Aye, I ended up stoning with a hungry stomach for 1h10mins D: Elgin ar, next time we must really get your maid/security guard/mother's handphone numbers to mobilise them during emergencies.

Chased after a 31 (got pangseh-ed by Chiahhock). Well, reached school, crapped/rehearsed (unsuccessfully). Ah well, PSL appreciation was highly interesting (and lame). Chen Ee failing Chinese is like the biggest joke since 10,000 BC!

Cross-campus for training. Aye, I realised I get to meet a lot of people during cross-campus. Anyway, thanks yitong for the word of encouragement :x

2008-10-27T23:35:00.002+08:00

Once-in-a-lifetime. Hmm, was rather interesting, I suppose.
.

For an hour today, it seemed horribly unlucky. Luckily things turned out better (: yeah, spent an hour and a half at Borders trying to find something to spend my 40 bucks gift card on :x

I CAN GO SCHOOL LATE TOMORROW!, (or not). Well, I can't complain, it's part of my job. And boy, do I love my job.

2008-10-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

~~Ohwell. Times like this makes one feel obsolete. Maybe. Or perhaps weak. Whichever.~~

This post should not make sense to you. If it does, you've probably planted something in my brain.

2008-10-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

Right, what I'm currently working on. Not exactly my pride and joy, so to say.

2008-10-16T21:09:00.001+08:00

I guess, I really ought to get used to it.

No running, hopping, etc. for you, aye. Don't aggravate the ankle(s) again D: Rest well alright, I promise photos.

Web design course was quite a waste of time. Ohwell, 150bucks b&j's voucher (:

2008-10-10T20:58:00.003+08:00

The Idiot-Proof Guide to Borrowing Money from Strangers

Dress like a good little boy, not a mat/beng
This means: no studs, blond/other facinating colours, nor mat-fashion clothes
Tell a long draggy story on how you're parentless and the world hates you
Pretend your target is a real saint, who does not swear. Hence, do not include interesting adjectives to your story.
When your target is evidently bored, call him 'brotha' and pop the question
Ask, 'I told you my story, you're not gunna help me?'
Scream and shout 'Nabeh, fuck, other adjectives' if he declines, rudely or politely
Do your trademark juvenile delinquent style, 'You not happy issit?!'

For future references, a mat shouldn't ask me for money, nor attempt to rob me. I'm not freaking educated in decent schools, martial arts-trained, train 6 days a week of running, to get robbed of 7 bucks by you.

Oh yes. If your story was true, I'm sorry but this is Singapore; You DIE if you've neither brains nor money.

2008-10-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

This week of training has been rather interesting. Ed's recital of the cross guy's names in alphabetical order, and 'no wonder he's so agitated' was highly amusing (:

Open house today. Concerts/performances, stoning. Good run this morning.

Okay, my train of thoughts do not flow, I can't blog anymore D:

2008-10-01T21:20:00.000+08:00

I like training.

2008-09-26T20:17:00.002+08:00

"Real men can cook."

Sunrice was fun! (: Thanks Chiahhock, Rohan, Yijie for being my tablemates. Aye, you know you're an atrocious chef when you chop flesh that ain't meant to be eaten. Still, cooking + waiter-ing was fun.

Time trial tomorrow. I have no idea how I'm gonna run 12k.

2008-09-26T00:08:00.001+08:00

(vs guys in canteen, plasma shows cna, with barack obama)
jianghan: eh i want obama to win. i want to see black president
me: dont we all?
hang on, singapore has a black president :D
jianghan: (sarcastically) singapore got president meh? do what one?
manu: he whole day only sit in the Isetan do nothing

everyone: huh, isetan?!

2008-09-23T19:34:00.001+08:00

I feel increasingly useless.

2008-09-21T23:38:00.001+08:00

Say: Holy Crap o:

2008-09-21T20:03:00.007+08:00

You know, instead of judging teenage gang members by their apparent stupidity or laziness, I'm starting to udnerstand them. It's because of people like you, putting us, the youths down this way. No, we'll never live up to your expectations, because we were never quite seen as humans in your eyes. We are but showpieces, or perhaps, pedigree dogs. You breed us and compare us against others' dogs, in a superficial contest of fame, glory, whatever.

Don't read on unless you really like the word 'fuck'.

You know what, I'm actually looking forward to NS. That shithole might be better.

(If you have observed the trend in my posts, this is known as the post-weekend fucked-up feeling. Therefore, Zf has learnt that he has to spend >13hours away from this shithole every day if he wishes to keep sane)

Fuck off, haven't you ruined my life far enough? Yes, I didn't get into your wonderful alma mater; I never wanted to. You think I've got no fucking talent in academics, whatsoever. True, I'm not a top student, nor a fucking scholarship holder. Right, now that makes me wonder what would happen were I born a retard. Would you fucking murder me yourself then?

You once said about her, that she doesn't treat this place as a home, but as a hotel. To me, it can't be a hotel. A hotel, at the very least, would not bring much fucked-up feelings to its guests. It's a fucking prison. And we all know it, just that we don't articulate it.

I wish I were born retarded. Might have saved me 15 years of fucking misery.

To the genuinely concerned, don't worry, I'm fine. Just needed an outlet. Better than torturing the wall with punches or slitting wrists, right.

2008-09-17T22:49:00.004+08:00

LIBERATION! (:

Aye, it seems strange how we longed so much for this day, and yet are at a loss. Hmm today:

Physics. Not that terrible (: Was wearing my injinjis in helmsman (and getting interested looks from the guys). Quoting donald leo, 'What, never see toe-socks before ar?'

Went with Jianghan to meet Ms Teoh, to announce my interest again and for jianghan to get his lecture, which has yet to occur. HAHAH.

Went up to 12, went to parkway to eat/talk crap with manu, bryan, enan, andre, songkai, iggy, yimeng. Really nonsensical with gossip and all ._. saw qiuyan/kangsing at kfc. they took so long to realise i was there, lol.

went home, showered, went to meet jianghan and iggy at tampines mrt. aye, i was the earliest and mr ng/wang/wee came late la. 'will reach in less than 3 minutes' become 5 minutes. horrible!

elgin's the worst, aye. yijie enan jianghan iggy me at bedok. elgin's still bathing. so.. we spammed smses and calls. jianghan and enan competed in sending nonsense, iggy sent 10+ blank messages, me and yijie spammed miss calls :D

reached early, walked around, talked crap, met up with bryan, manu, andrew, dom. Saw bernice, eileen, natalie and qinghui at vivo. ate at carl's jr, and watched babylon ad. was rather amusing watching jianghan smuggle the 2 large drinkss from carl's jr (Free flow) into the cinema. haha.

Movie was, as rated, 1-star. But it was really amusing watching it with 9 other vs guys (: we all stared at jianghan during certain parts of the show, hahah. left the theatre quoting dumb parts of the movie. 'the storm is coming. are you ready?'

babylon ad is essentially about how one should go into the house to avoid the storm. yes, and that virgin births result in twins (one white, one black).

talked crap, cam-whored (._.). vs guys outings are fun shit (: oh yes, bryan, i may be homophobic but im learning to accept you (: hahah!

OH YES, IGGY's our residential BIMBO!
and, new pick-up line if one ever needs it: 'Do you wish to pray with me?'

2008-09-16T22:15:00.000+08:00

Damn, I swear this is some demoralizing shit.

2008-09-14T20:00:00.002+08:00

All the power, self-belief and determination, coupled with hard work don’t mean you have to be the best in the world. There’s only one person who can say he’s the best in the world, and he can only boast of this for a short time. So what does this mean for the rest of us who belief and strive to be the best in the world, and yet, fell short of our goal. We can’t accomplish our goal; does this make us all failures? Are 99% of the people of the world wasting their lives because they never made it to the top? ‘Course not.

- Ryan Hall (US Olympic Marathoner)

2008-09-14T19:09:00.002+08:00

Simple plan - Perfect

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

So tell me, have I been but a cause for shame all along? I don't know, because you've never said nor even hinted otherwise.

2008-09-14T15:32:00.002+08:00

Yeah, yeah, I'm a failure. That's all you ever see of me. I'm neither the best of the best, nor the best amongst the worst, and therefore, I'm no good whatsoever in your eyes.

2008-09-13T23:37:00.001+08:00

Justin Timberlake - Until the End of Time

Listen

Woke up this morning
Heard the TV sayin' something
'Bout disaster in the world and
It made me wonder where I'm going
There's so much darkness in the world
But I see beauty left in you girl
And what you give me let's me know
That I'll be alright

'cause if your love was all I had
In this life
Well that would be enough
Until the end of time
So rest your weary heart
And relax your mind
Cause I'm gonna love you girl
Until the end of time

You've got me singing
Oh whoa, yeah
Oh whoa, yeah
Everybody sing
Oh whoa, yeah
Everybody singing
Oh whoa yeah

Now if you're ever wondering
About the way I'm feeling
Well baby girl there ain't no question
Just to be around you is a blessing
Sick and tired of trying to save the world
I just want to spend my time with you girl
And what you're giving me
Let's me know that we'll be alright.

'cause if your love was all I had
In this life
Well that would be enough
Until the end of time
So rest your weary heart
And relax your mind
Cause I'm gonna love you girl
Until the end of time

Oh whoa yeah
Oh whoa yeah
Oh whoa yeah
Oh whoa yeah

'cause if your love was all I had
In this life
That would be enough
Until the end of time

2008-09-12T22:15:00.003+08:00

We all seem so plastic, don't we. Masked. Are we too ashamed to see the world, or can we not take the stares?

what's with all the 'big fake smiles and stupid lies'?

Sorry, random emo post.

2008-09-12T21:58:00.000+08:00

Some things make you think. Some things make you ponder. Some things (like physics) makes you keep procrastinating.

2008-09-12T16:53:00.000+08:00

Bio presentation prelude. Eh JOANNE LOW, how come benita has the file when i didnt?! D:

2008-09-10T17:50:00.001+08:00

5.25km. Botak, I'm so much more disciplined than you (I admit i walked for at least .4 though):x

Right, I hate compres. Damnnnn.

2008-09-09T20:57:00.001+08:00

Post 360. If you're freaking bored from mugging, take a break:

WARNING: seemingly gay/disturbing content (highly amusing though) :x

2008-09-09T19:49:00.001+08:00

Organ Trade (heavy edit, based on 报章报道)

I believe there is nothing wrong with organ trade, ethically or otherwise. Yes, it is illegal in most developed countries, but people go off to the poorer developing countries to get their kidneys anyway, so why not, legalise it and minimize the risks.

Why do people sell their kidneys? These people are often poor, from third world countries. Even after deductions of agent’s fee, they still get quite a sum. One doesn’t need both kidneys, and having only one will still allow a person’s body to function normally.

Why do people buy kidneys? People suffering from kidney failure have to endure gruelling hours of dialysis every day. With the long waiting list, and very low supply of donated kidneys, the wait for a suitable donor’s kidney would take years. Instead of waiting for years in vain, people choose to purchase kidneys from poorer countries, for a small pittance.

A reason why people are turning to organ trade is because of an old belief of certain religions and ethnic groups, that in death, one must have an intact body. This results in few people pledging their organs in their last will. The supply of kidneys barely increases, whereas the demand for kidneys is ever-increasing.

Organ trade, in an economical sense, can benefit the seller. With the sum of money they get from selling their organ, which really is what they make in a year or perhaps more, they would be able to lead a better life. They will move up the socio-economic ladder, and their kids would be ensured a proper education, which would eventually allow the family to break out of the poverty cycle. As well, with the money comes to right of consumerism. This would then serve to boost the economy.

My stand is that organ trade should be legalised, and controlled.

Firstly, legalised organ trade must be arranged by a governmental, non-profit organisation. The organisation can have a database of possible buyers and sellers. They can then arrange for prospective matches (with suitable kidneys) to meet up, and discuss a trade. The organisation can broker the deal, which would ensure the rights of the seller are protected.

Secondly, the government must enforce laws that all organ transplant operations must be performed in local hospitals, under qualified surgeons. This would lower the possible hygiene and infection risks that the poorer country’s hospitals might carry.

Whether or not organ trade becomes legalised, this is one thing that ought to be carried out: changing the perspectives of people. The government can encourage people to pledge their organs in their last wills, which would really help ease the long waiting list. After all, after one’s death, if your organs can prolong someone else’s life, allow that someone to lead a more meaningful life – with your organ, is that not a cause to be proud of? Instead of selfishly letting them rot when you get buried or charred when you get cremated, donate them, and let them have a new lease of life. This could just bring someone else hope.

K screwed Chinese. LA now

2008-09-07T22:39:00.000+08:00

As of now, T-9.55hours to Doomsday 1. Oh the irony.

2008-09-06T23:47:00.002+08:00

Run For Hope 2008, 5th October 2008.

Alright, things to do:
Convince my dad I'm perfectly free after exams and can go for the 10k charity race.
Clear my exams

Oh did I mention, I think my injinji tetratsoks are like the best things I've splurged on in a long time (:

2008-08-31T10:44:00.000+08:00

I need a personal computer.

2008-08-28T20:00:00.003+08:00

How interesting, aye

Yellowcard - Everywhere (Cover)

Turn it inside out so I can see
The part of you that's drifting over me
'Cause when I look you're, you're never there
But when I sleep you're, you're everywhere
You're everywhere

Tell me how I got this far
Tell me why you're here and who you are
'Cause every time I look
You're never there
And every time I sleep
You're always there

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
You might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
Away from me

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
I'm not alone

And when I touch your hand
It's then I understand
The beauty that's within
It's now that we begin
You always light my way
There never comes a day
No matter where I go
I always feel you so

'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone
You're everywhere to me
And when I catch my breath
It's you I breathe
You're everything I know
That makes me believe
I'm not alone

You're in everyone I see
So tell me
Do you see me?

2008-08-24T20:57:00.001+08:00

Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down

Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
This air is blessed, you share with me
This night is wild, so calm and dull
These hearts they race from self control
Your legs are smooth as they graze mine
We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury
or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer

The words are hushed let's not get busted
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered
Safe in here from all the stupid questions
"Hey did you get some?"... Man, that is so dumb
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear
So we can get some

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury
or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember
Always remember the sound of the stereo,
the dim of the soft lights,
the scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
And this walk that we shared together

The streets were wet and the gate was locked
so I jumped it, and let you in
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew that you meant it
that you meant it, that you meant it
I knew that you meant it, that you meant it

Acoustic/emo rock. Nice.

2008-08-20T22:42:00.000+08:00

What the hell. Bolt broke the WR and the screwed-up mediacorp didn't air it. DAMN!

2008-08-20T22:25:00.001+08:00

Screw MEDIACORP. Hello, why are you not freaking showing Bolt?! It'd be a great boost to your viewership, you know. So, therefore, no more local tv for me.

2008-08-18T21:47:00.002+08:00

Unsuited rejects. Surprisingly, I didn't feel that bad about it. until now.
Sourgrapes 101; we'd trust your judgment.

Ohwell golf was spastic. Bus trip back with the guys was interesting/fun (: Elgin, you missed out a lot sleeping.

2008-08-17T22:01:00.002+08:00

Someone needs to write 'Physics for Dummies' or 'Moments for Dummies'. Or do they already exist? Enlighten me; I hella need them ):

2008-08-16T22:41:00.001+08:00

9.69!

Damn, my parents should have named me Bolt.

2008-08-12T00:20:00.001+08:00

I was bored. And googled Mr Lam's name, expecting to find stuff about GC but,

BEHOLD

With his unique name, it is difficult to forget Mr. Lam Yui-P'ng. If nothing else, one would at least remember his hyphen and apostrophe. With his good temper and patient demeanour, Mr. Lam is definitely THE Mr. Nice Guy in the department. Mr. Lam has been teaching since 1997 and when it comes to Mathematics, he loves to do Operational Research. He doesn't feel much about students who are not in his good book - he's just "gotten used to most of them anyway". But he does prefer students who are more matured. In his free time, he likes to go jogging (with Mr. Kho and some other jog-freaks), and particularly enjoys shopping with his wife (give him a few more years ...). If he were not teaching, he's quite likely to be a police officer.

._.

2008-08-10T23:22:00.001+08:00

I'm probably the only person closed to amuse by this. Ohwell, USA vs China in 37minutes (:

2008-08-10T21:33:00.001+08:00

After enduring months of shit, I swear I'm gonna call for change, for liberation.

The line above refers to two things. No prizes for guessing what. Oh, guess what, I'm pissed.

2008-08-09T19:50:00.002+08:00

Missed out something from yesterday:

Me: You know, in the light of National Day, we should taupok Rohan.
Rest of guys: Yeah, we should!
*/me grabs Rohan every few minutes in weak attempts to push him to the ground*
Rest of guys: *stone* Zf why you so high?

St Pats guy: Baris . .. . . . . BUSOH
Me: Woah Rohan, he's calling you! He can smell you all the way from the other side ._.

Right, today was boring.

they try to complement you, you know. make you better

2008-08-08T22:16:00.003+08:00

National Day (eve of) has gotta be the lamest day of all. Day started off being the first guy in class, 'Where's Chiahhock? ._.'. Aye, anyway, Chan road a jeep with Keith as his guard. Somewhat like National Day Parade (same figure, anyway :x). Oh this ODAC guy flyingfox-ed down with the national flag. 'That's like a paratrooper, on a tight budget.'

Catwalk in the hall. Amusing, somewhat. We spent most of it doing the favourite handsigns. Hmm, Ernest Puey has a cool shirt: 'I (heart) GST!'. The day was filled with random guys doing random things. Some fella wearing a shirt with national flag print ran across the stage halfway while we were singing ._.

Bridged in class. Floorball girls were in our class and:

Annabel: Why are you all wearing the same shirt? It's so.. (random stuff)
Me: Oh, I know why you keep commenting on our shirts. Cos it's white and you're jealous!

Went back vs (alone). Barely met most of the people I wished to see, ohwell. Got a footage of Kasidet's sing and dance. Trust me guys, you'd be dying of laughter on tuesday when I show you the vid :x

red cliff. and we weren't lost (:

2008-07-28T20:41:00.003+08:00

'You are not a risk-taker, you have the tendency to keep to the tried and tested ways'

I agree. 2.4 for pe today+tchoukball. 10.47, nowhere near best time, but pretty decent since I just recovered (self-consolation 101). Started well though, 80seconds, 2min 30, 4min 20. Talked to Mr Boy for T42, oh right, I hate self-reflection. Hmmm.

Went back to vs to say hi to the prople having training. Ohwell, they were all like 'what the hair?!' and reading my shirt (outstanding.outperforming.out having fun) with a (outSHAVEN). Oh, I realised I have an odd tendency to start conversations with vs guys using chinese. Weird. Ohwell.

2008-07-27T15:59:00.001+08:00

Guys playing netball, yay.

2008-07-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

Jerk. Ohwell. College Day is boring.

Enan (on Smeet and Jianghan): 'You two look so cute together!' LOL.

2008-07-22T23:13:00.001+08:00

"If you dont buck up for EOYs, we dont need you in my cca"

How motivating, aye. Alright, now I need to add 3 more to get my gold, or 1 more for my silver. OHwelll.

2008-07-21T21:57:00.000+08:00

I'd probably have to start giving Miss Chua undivided attention during bio now then. rawrrrr.

2008-07-16T22:04:00.000+08:00

Indie sucks. Big time. ohwell.

2008-07-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

I know I ought not to feel scared but.. Damn. Sorry!

Indie is boring shizz. Ohwell, at least we're getting somewhere.

2008-07-14T22:00:00.001+08:00

I love frisbee! Indieventure is.. interestingly hard. Grouped with Samuel Jaime and Janice. And making atrociously non-existant progress.

2008-07-08T21:41:00.001+08:00

Zf: You know, unlike most guys, I'm actually kind of looking forward to NS.
Sis: Yeah I know. Could tell from your hair.

Truthfully, I can't wait to graduate from botak-dom. I've experienced 2 weeks as a botak, and I think it's quite enough to last me till NS (:

2008-07-07T00:52:00.001+08:00

Meeting teammates for JTS in 9hours, hopefully rushing to meet v11-ers for Hancock later. Great week, (hopefully) better one ahead.

Why is this post so filled with hopefully's? o:

2008-07-05T23:08:00.001+08:00

Note to self: Tape up hotspots before going on runs. Prevention better than wincing every step.

Right, today was cooooooooool. Alrights now I'm hungryyyyy.

2008-07-04T23:36:00.003+08:00

Chris Brown feat. Keri Hilson - Superhuman

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat, On my knees

But that's the moment you came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see though the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman (I feel so superhuman X2)
Superhuman

Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
And I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see how love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all superhuman, you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman (I feel so superhuman X2)
Superhuman

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I can feel like I can do anything
Going going, I'm gone away in love

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A superhuman heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Superhuman

Superhuman

Damn so much homework. They take advantage of an extra day-off to call it a 'long weekend' and dump us so much ): Hellboyyyyyyy!

2008-07-02T21:09:00.002+08:00

Questions:

1)What disappoints you the most?
being left alone, screwing up exams.

2)Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
spain/swiss

3)What's your favourite thing to do?
run, spending time with friends

4)Do you think money can buy happiness?
Nope.

5)If u can have one dream to come true, what will it be?
I want brains ):

Do you believe you can survive without money?
Do I look like a sheep in sheep's clothing to you?

7)What you afraid to lose the most?
family, friends.

8)If you win $1million, what will you do?
~~thank everyone and laugh at them cos they dont get a share~~
buy shit load of stuff, and eventually, invest.

9)What do you think of yourself?
I reserve comments (:

10)List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
guzheng pro, nice to talk to, responsible vice-head prefect of 2005?

11)What makes you happy?
Being alive.

12)What type of person you hate most?
low-life scums and vermins of society.

13)Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
marathoning!

14)If you have a superpower, what will it be?
Create my own dimension to hide from people o:

15)What do you think is the most important thing of your life?
friends, family, a life.

16)If it's the end of world, what will it be your last wish?
that I dont die alone.

17)What do you treasure the most?
The EARTHH!

18)Which anime character you like most?
Ukitake Jyuushiro (Bleach)

19)Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him/her?
the person?

20)What's your next aim?
To mug and mug. To run fast, to do well in wushu. Too much to state.

Instruction: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your own personal question,make it a total of 20 quesion, then tag 8 people in your list. no tagged, no removed questions

Alrights, conclusion of the day: People don't pay attention in Physics. Strangely, half the class don't remember Boy telling the 'resisting gravity' thing for the second time.

2008-07-01T21:30:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, blogging is a burden.

I've been almost falling asleep every class. Damn, how screwed.

(: Seryang introduced me to this song a year ago.

A Moment Like This - Kelly Clarkson/Leona Lewis

What if I told you
It was all meant to be
Would you believe me,
Would you agree
It's almost that feelin'
That we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come and now...

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

Everything changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I maybe dreamin'
But 'till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this...
Some people wait a lifetime

For a moment like this
Some people spent two lifetimes,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

OHHHH, LIKE THIS

OHHHH, YEAH, 'cuz people search for every moment yeah.

Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this.

Ohhhhh, like this.

2008-06-30T21:12:00.002+08:00

(:

Ayes updated.

Alright, had boring lit, boring hist today. Learnt that we're getting a new lit teacher and that ironman and hulk are representations of us government and its people.

Lang Arts, started on the Arts. One work of Keith Haring was showed and Ms Chiam asked who heard of him. I'm disappointed that the rest of the vs guys (other than Evan) didn't. I mean that much crap on 'block colours, thick outlines, action lines' in Sec1 VS Art was so easily forgotten. Ohwell, Ms Chiam asked:

'Do you like his work?'
Me: 'No, he's gay!'
'Excuse me. Why are you so homophobic?!'

'Is that the reason why you shaved?'
'What's with the new hairstyle?'
Me: 'Uhh, that's a good question. Let me think..'
Me: 'Ahh right, I'm inspired by Timberlake!

Well anyhow, PE was rather boring. Saw Naren :D Ayes, one day I'll smoke you in 400/800, watch out! (:

And yes, thank you too!

2008-06-28T21:52:00.001+08:00

They are wonderful thoughts, somehow. Somewhat wished I chose the other path, but I guess there'll be next time (: I hope.