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i used to rule the world.
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seas would rise when i gave the word
now in the morning i sleep alone
08v11 sweep the streets i used to own
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8:03 PM You know, instead of judging teenage gang members by their apparent stupidity or laziness, I'm starting to udnerstand them. It's because of people like you, putting us, the youths down this way. No, we'll never live up to your expectations, because we were never quite seen as humans in your eyes. We are but showpieces, or perhaps, pedigree dogs. You breed us and compare us against others' dogs, in a superficial contest of fame, glory, whatever. Don't read on unless you really like the word 'fuck'. You know what, I'm actually looking forward to NS. That shithole might be better. (If you have observed the trend in my posts, this is known as the post-weekend fucked-up feeling. Therefore, Zf has learnt that he has to spend >13hours away from this shithole every day if he wishes to keep sane) Fuck off, haven't you ruined my life far enough? Yes, I didn't get into your wonderful alma mater; I never wanted to. You think I've got no fucking talent in academics, whatsoever. True, I'm not a top student, nor a fucking scholarship holder. Right, now that makes me wonder what would happen were I born a retard. Would you fucking murder me yourself then? You once said about her, that she doesn't treat this place as a home, but as a hotel. To me, it can't be a hotel. A hotel, at the very least, would not bring much fucked-up feelings to its guests. It's a fucking prison. And we all know it, just that we don't articulate it. I wish I were born retarded. Might have saved me 15 years of fucking misery. To the genuinely concerned, don't worry, I'm fine. Just needed an outlet. Better than torturing the wall with punches or slitting wrists, right. |